So I tried to make a post about fish and chips from my iPhone this arvo and it just didnt work, then it published the title and nothing else!
We have had a really good day today, we went to a friends parents bach, had a swim in their pool and a general hang out. The sun was shining and it was a really nice day.
We were driving home at about 5.30pm and the girls hadnt had their dinner yet. I got this huge desire to have some fish and chips, just sit on the beach and eat as a family.
I find myself envious of people who can do that, are able to have a take away fish and chips on the beach and then carry on as normal. I'm sure in time when i'm at goal i'm going to be able to do it too, have the odd take away and then keep on going the next day and it wont be a problem.
At the moment it is a problem, I wouldnt be able to control myself, and I know that. I would eat everyones leftovers, way too much, end up feeling sick or filled with hate for doing that. I would be fighting with myself the whole time to try and stop myself from over indulging.
This obsession I have with food is hard.