Gym bunny

Ok so i'm definatly NOT a gym bunny but I have joined my local gym. I was really struggling to get out walking, it was either raining, dark, not a good time and I was sick of 'making excuses' with myself.
So I joined on saturday, had my first assesment with my trainer on sunday and then tonight (Thursday) he went through my programme with me.

So from now on we shall refer to my trainer as 'the evil one' because every part of my body hurts bad. Real bad. So bad that I am not sure i'm going to be able to walk tomorrow.

The evil one kept telling me that it was 'no pain no gain' and he wasnt lying. At one point i'm pretty sure I swore at him and that seemed to give him satisfaction that I was working as I should have been.

I am now set with my plan and i'm going to work hard.
There is definatly one huge advantage to going to the gym. I might be in pain, I might be sweaty and worried that people are looking at me but at least I am having some alone time.

Food is always so tempting

We had a birthday party to go to today and I had been looking foward to it for a few weeks now. I knew I was going to need my weekly points for this day but I braced myself and went to enjoy myself.
Everything was going so well until the desserts came out. I just couldnt stop myself. I had three piklets with jam and cream, a small piece of cake, a chocolate biscuit then a big old piece of chocolate brownie.
If I had been able to stop myself having those I would have been fine, but instead I blew my points RIGHT out of the water.
Being around the tempting high point food is still hard, and I still dont have the will power to stop myself.

After we got home I then got my walking shoes on and I went for a 4km walk to help balance out what I had eaten. I am also going to have to go out again tomorrow and walk a whole lot more.

I really hope that it is enough to wipe out what I ate.

But most importantly, the party was lovely!

11kg down

I have been at weight watchers for 4 months now and in that time I have lost 11kg. I seem to have these periods of being really good, sticking to my points and being in a really good head space to falling off the wagon and yo-yoing up and down for a few weeks.

Last week was a good week, I stuck to my points, drank at least 1.5litres of water every day and even managed two exercise sessions. From that I was rewarded with a 1.9kg loss, and boy that felt good.
This week isnt going as well. I did stick to my points yesterday and I drank water too. Today I have eaten well and i'm on my first bottle of water but i'm tired and I know its going to be a huge battle.
My little girl has Croup and it suxs. None of us are getting sleep and when i'm tired I comfort eat. I want to just get in the car and go up to the shops and get something deep friend and salty. I am using every bit of willpower that I own not to go and do that. I keep thinking of that feeling I had on Mondy after getting off the scales and it said I had lost 1.9kg, I want another good loss, I want to keep this going and not fall off the wagon even though I am tired.

I want this to not be such a big battle in my head, I want the skinny girl inside to win this round not the fat girl on the outside.

200gms

I am only 200gms away from losing 10kg! 10 freaking kg! When I get it next week it will have taken me 12 weeks to loose. I have been struggling with my motivation for the last few weeks, I have good days and then not so good days. I do my best to keep myself in check but sometimes its so hard to find the will power to stop eating. But 10kg is almost gone... there is just 200gms between me and that goal and by damn I am going to do it.

Awesome meeting

Tonight was my meeting and it was a lovely meeting indeed. I lost 1.7kg which makes my total loss 9.6kg. I am so close to that 10kg loss mark that I can almost taste it.
I am desperate to get it next week, so much so that I told everyone in my meeting that I was only 400gms away.

I also hit another milestone tonight, I am officially under 130kg whoo hooooo :)
Its been a while since I have been in that position and i'm so glad to say good bye to the 130s and here is to NEVER going back there again.

So the challenge this week, its my birthday. And on a birthday you have cake and a yummy dinner. My leader has always told me that one meal wont effect the scale and I have my bonus weekly points so i'm sure I will be fine.

400gms... watch out because here I come.

kid free and walking

So this weekend just gone my lovely husband took the two small people to visit my inlaws for two nights. That means I got two nights at home by myself.
As they left I had a wee cry, and then I sat down and realised how quiet it was.
Now i'm not going to lie, it was nice... real nice!

So this weekend I made a pact with myself that I would keep exactly to my points, no cheating and no sneaking the odd mouthful of food without counting the points.
Well I did it and I actually found it alot easier. I didnt have any of the kids leftovers to snack on and I didnt find myself getting stressed out and finding something to eat.

I have a lovely friend, she forced me into a walk too. I didnt want to go, I even tried to get out of it but she made me do it and i'm thankful :)
So walking is on again and i'm kinda looking foward to it.

Worst blogger ever

Yep that is me, the worse blogger ever!
I have had a few ups and downs the last few weeks. Last week I gained for the first time, 1.6kg. Ouch! Then this week I lost 900gms, so I havent made up for my gain but at least I had a good loss.
I seem to have lost my mojo at the minute. My willpower is shot and I find myself snacking on things that I shouldnt be. Today is not going well, infact I havent tracked and i'm pretty sure I wont be eating much for dinner tonight. Either that or I will be having fruit since its free!
After writing i'm going to go and track and see how bad it is.

Total weight loss now is 7.9kg, sometimes that seems like a lot but other times like today it doesnt seem like much at all. A drop in the bucket of how much I have to lose. I did reach my 5% at my meeting this week so that was nice, but it didnt give me the motivation I need to keep going.

I got sick about the same time I stopped blogging, from that the walking had stopped too. I couldnt walk while I was coughing up a storm, but the coughing has stopped now so I really need to get back into the groove of walking again. I find most of the time its getting out the door that is the problem, once i'm doing it i'm ok.

So if anyone has my mojo could you please send it back. I am not going to give up but I would like for it to be not such a huge mental battle each day.